in my arms

we always knew we wanted little ones, someday. whether naturally or by adoption we knew we wanted to raise little ones of our own. 

i say 'someday' because there were and still are times when we wonder 'what are we thinking?' -about bringing little ones into this world. this world so full of hurt and loss. why would we want to subject our child to a world we know will scar them? 

lately i look around and see all these trials that impact everyone and worry about how i will keep my own little one safe. i want to hide them away and protect them from all the heartache. this is because i know i can not, soon enough this little boy will no longer be safely nestled in my womb and will have to face the world. i cry knowing i can not safeguard him when he ventures out to a friend's house or to the school bus.

the best we can do is to raise strong capable children that know they are loved and can talk openly with their parents about their burdens and heartbreak, pray they know their self-worth, and undoubtedly introduce them to all the good and wonderful things along the way, that make this life worth living.