monday was a perfect day. josh was unexpectedly home from work at 0915 and our morning was spent lounging on the bed with a happy baby and no agenda. we whiled away the day doing little things around the house, playing fetch with the dog and going for a walk at sunset. it was not an extraordinary day - we didn't go anywhere special or consume a fancy meal - but as i get older these special times are the ones i hold closest to my heart and i find that my husband does as well. that evening after our walk i came in from filling the bird feeder and found josh rocking river in the dining room facing the backyard. he looked at me and said simply, 'you know what? this is the life i've always wanted - you and river.'
as i anticipate returning to work next week (part-time, hurrah!) i am harboring a bit of anxiety. river is fortunate to have some wonderful people caring for him while i am away including his daddy and for that i am so grateful. but it's most difficult to realize that he will soon have a life apart from me. this is something i am learning to come to terms with, but as a mother i know it's never going to be easy to let my baby go.
i guess that's what makes days like monday all the more wonderful. in this life we are given if everyday were the perfect day they wouldn't all be so perfect or special anymore, would they?
i guess that's what makes days like monday all the more wonderful. in this life we are given if everyday were the perfect day they wouldn't all be so perfect or special anymore, would they?
2 comments:
Jaclyn, this is such a beautiful post. And such a lovely way to look at returning to work (yes, hurrah for part time!) and leaving your little one. So good to know that River will have special people looking after him though.
When I reflect on how having Saskia has changed me, I too think about how I find joy in the little things. Such a gift. Lucky us.
Wishing you a smooth and happy transition. Looking forward to hearing how it goes x
ThAnk you Claire, having a child really is one of the best joys. Work has been going ok, some days are harder than others, struggling to find time to pump, be in the moment with my residents and still trying to get out on time to see my bay boy. Thankfully he has taken the transition well. :)
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